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Ugh... I always mess up

Today I am going to try to eat as little as possible.
Take Michael for a walk. Go to the park put him in the swing then walk some more.
Michael is eating some leftover pancakes. -And I'm NOT!
Last night we went to the drum circle it was cool. It's right there on the beach. But it was a bit windy and cool. I walked through the hotel I used to work at to see who was working and saw a couple people said hi and let them see my baby.

I AM ABOUT TO PUT SOMETHING...I DON'T WANT AND NEGATIVE REACTIONS. PLEASE!

After that we went to his friends house for a little bit. chilled there for a bit. Then we went outside...and he asked if I wanted to hit the purp. I guess it's better then hydro... I did...then hated myself when we came home cause I ate more. I had a bowl of the cheap reese's cereal and a peanut butter bread. But after I came in and Mike was looking at the single's classified on craigslist. I went to bed without talking to him. He hurt me so bad.

What am I doing wrong that he has to look elsewhere?

Nothing ever works

I need to find something that works to lose this weight. I can't do it. I need to try something. I can't get motivated then when I try to get dressed and my pants don't fit. I throw a fit. Saying i'm fat i'm not going to eat. I need to stop this overeating shit. It's getting really old. I am sick of it. But when you don't have much money to eat you get what you can. So I try to eat healthy but it's so expensive here. The other day I weighed myself and it went towards 180 I got happy but was like thats not right. So I stood on  it right and moved it and it was around 185... I don't have a digital scale. I want one. ...

Probably update more later...

Current Weight: 185

Current Intake. A few cookie crisps cereal
                        Pancakes...will look up calories later...going to leave for a bit

Goodness!!!!

Went and looked at the car...it wasn't what I thought. I said i'd rather keep my chevy with a blown motor... I would of liked to have that body with my motor before it blew...lol...

I forgot to add this. I might see if I can trade my car for this '79 Chevy Impala 2 door. It has a 400 SBC. Yeah baby.... looked like chrome header's. It's black and maroon inside. It also has a hood scoop. I want to drive it. Oak wood sterring wheel would look very good in it!

Michael and I left with my mom yesterday and went to her place. She lives right down the road from the beach. So I was there all day. It was nice but the water is still cold! So Michael didn't go in it. Instead he played with the toys. But cause of teething he trys to eat everything...lol he would put the sand in his mouth then make that look like I shouldn't of done that. Then later to rinse him off my mom put him one of the bucket's. It was full of water. hahaha he fit right in...it was too cute. Then Mike came after work and we went to watch sunset. It was beautiful. I wish we could afford to live there. It's alot of money for a really small place.

EDIT: He is 11 months and 3 days....

EDIT: He is 11 months and 2 days...

EDIT: He is 11 months and 1 day now... I am counting down

My son is 11 months old today. So we really have to get down to planning his first bday bash. I believe he will be walking soon. He holds on to everything and just goes. He just wants to take off it's too cute! Two days after he turned nine months he said dada then he learned how to stand then right after that he learned how to hold on to stuff and walk. He's sitting up now too. It's amazing how much they learn. He still just scoots but that's alright. I think it's cause I always put him on his back or side to sleep. I was so scared of S.I.D.S!

We have to pick a date. He turns 1 on the 17th. So maybe that sunday (so far)
We have to pick a place. Probably a park. Found a place
We have to get invitions.
We have to start getting presents.  More clothes he has a ton of toys he doesn't even play with.
We have to find out about cakes. One small one just for him to smash his face...lol and one for everyone else. He gets a small cake for his 1st bday for free from publix
We have to plan on budget for food for all.

He also has 6 teeth. The 2 front one on each side of them. Not the 2 front on top but the sides. Those just came in.

Yesterday I made a choice and was happy about it. We were getting something to eat before we went to the beach. He asked if I wanted pizza I said no. There's like over 800 something calories in one slice. So he asked if we wanted to split a thing of sweet and sour chicken. I said no too and I LOVE IT! We split a sub. I had no mayo or mustard. It was a turkey with provolone. of course lettuce,tomoato,green pepper's, olives (can't have a sub without them) and banana pepper's, oil and vinger and pepper. I ate that. Had some flamming hots with it. Then later we went to his friend's house he had that fire. So I smoked.. ugh. Then had a blt w/ no mayo and like 6 chicken nuggets when i got him with honey dijon.

Anyone know of any calorie counter sites? That will be helpful.

I love tattooes...That will be my gift to myself with the weight loss. But I am waiting tell I get my settlement to get my tattooes. I'm not calling this "thinspo" i'm calling this inspiration of art for tattooes... and to lose weight to look beautiful for my new ink!